Wednesday, January 09, 2008

A kiss upon my cheek
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One
Two
Three
And four
You never counted to ten
Always cheated in a game of hide-and-seek
That's the way you were back then
Even now.

Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Call me on the phone late at night
Telling me you're alone and you miss me
But I'm sorry, I cannot put up with this anymore
These ridiculous games you play,
..Just to break my heart.
Now I know what it feels like
When everything falls apart.

Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Whisper in my ear the words I long to hear
The next day, you run away
To some other place, with some other girl
When you were supposed to meet me
You treated me like a fool
And yes I was, indeed,
A downright fool for trying to believe in you.
Trying so hard to convince myself
That you'd never do anything to hurt me.

Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
Sixteen
We used to be one, but now we're two
Set apart, deep inside, you're hurting me
I hate the very sight of you, but I need you
I wish you would stop, quit doing this over and over again
You asked for a second chance, and I gave you one
You let me down time and again.

Seventeen
Eighteen
Nineteen
Twenty
I saw you with her, but you deny
Expect me to forget what I saw
But I have to say
It was the worst thing I had ever seen in my life
I will always remember.
I should never have trusted you
You could never understand how I felt at that moment in time
I couldn't move, but you never saw me
I just stood and stared
Helplessly
An acute pain debilitated me,
My heart was crushed severely.
And the permanent damage was done.

Twenty
Nineteen
Eighteen
Seventeen
Back to the time I first saw you,
you looked so innocent, so beautiful
And the best thing was
you said you loved me so much
How naive I was!
Now I feel the downpour
Over my head, whipping my skin
I can't breathe anymore
And it's not because you're with me
Because you're not.

Sixteen
Fifteen
Fourteen
Thirteen
"Roses are red, violets are blue
Those flowers are beautiful, and so are you."
In my heart, I'll always remember
Those first two lines you wrote, for me.
Gave it to me, sealed with a kiss
On valentine's day, you drew near to me
And gave me my first kiss,
a kiss upon my cheek.
You said that I was the only one for you
And we would be together, forever.

Twelve
Eleven
Ten
Nine
Ever since then, we grew closer
And kisses that took my breath away
Lingered on my lips
We were more than lovers, I knew we were
Back then, all I needed was your touch
Your sweet embrace
Looking into your soft brown eyes and falling deeper
What more could I ask for?

Eight
Seven
Six
Five
All your words were nothing but lies
Those despicable kisses and hugs
They used to feel so wonderful
I feel so numb now
I want to let go, but i can't
Just thinking about life, without you
It's like going through the motion
But I must not do this anymore
I need to stop.

Four
Three
Two
One
The final countdown
I draw in deep breaths
And open my eyes
I have been trying to calm myself down
by closing my eyes, counting forward and backward

How am I going to talk to you?
I cannot think of the words to say
I just want to scream at the top of my lungs
Yell at you
Push you away
And wish you'd leave her
And someday come back to me.

You won't let me go, I know
But you won't stay with me either
Time is running out
I have to say my piece
To tell you that I don't need you anymore.
Where were you when I needed you most?
Having a good time in a faraway place
You were never there.

Now I look deep into your soft brown eyes
And see you crying at my feet
Begging for forgiveness, one last chance
Just one.
But I can't go any deeper
I will not let myself go through this kind of pain again
I cannot.
Maybe we'll be happier without each other
Maybe we just aren't right for each other

I've packed my things, I'm halfway out the door
I'm sorry, but I can't be with you anymore
You will be happier without me, I'm sure

Why do you look so helpless like a child?
When I was the one who felt so much more than you?
You never spared a thought for my feelings
I guess you never cared, or thought I cared.
Well, enough is enough.
I have said my piece.

Suddenly, you pull me near
Just like you did the first time we met
Before I could move away
You gave me a tearful kiss upon my cheek
And said that you were sorry, over and over again.

I wanted so much to go back to you
I wanted to stay
But I knew I had to go
Apologies are not enough
They are mere words that do nothing
but try to pacify.

I felt so hurt at that point in time
But you left me when I was at the peak of loneliness
I hope it is as they saythat time heals the pain
If so, i'll leave the memories behind
Or at least, try.

Tears trickle down my cheek and neck
A burning sensation, an overwhelming void;
Emptiness and nothingness fill the air
Wash over me thoroughly
As I walk out the door
My knees are shaking
My heart is palpitating,
Driven into a hollow, dark pit.

I had been trying to hold back the tears before
To appear firm and strong in front of him
Yet now
The tears just cannot stop flowing
They seem to sting and gnaw at my flesh
As everything goes cold.
A sudden realisation, something inside keeps bleeding
For the only thing I have left of you
Is your kiss upon my cheek.

Oh whilom love
What sorrow this brings
i cannot express enough
i cry to my heart
"i cannot love again!"
but i fall deeper into you.


by mel. Hmm suddenly had inspiration, haha. For me, inspiration comes abruptly. Like I'll be doing something, and suddenly ideas come pouring in And something inside urges me to write a poem, hah. Strange occurrences. Hmm i like this poem too. Haha. Actually more than the previous poem. Partly cuz I managed to make some parts rhyme. :D Hmm i love the emotions behind it too. I don't love many of my poems, so yeah, this is one of the few ((: And no, I've never been in a relationship So of course I've never broken up with anyone.. Just in case you're wondering.. -.- Anyway thanks for reading eh! ;)

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